Right in the emotions...

So, I think I see some sort of pattern beginning to emerge.  Almost always after I reach out to the world saying "I'm not dead I'm just not drawing"  I almost immediately start drawing again.  At least a bit anyways.

But fuckit, whatever.  I didn't sleep.  I'm a little wired tonight so I went out for breakfast, laptop and tablet came with me, and fanart happened.

I have seriously been debating with myself who is better/more desirable:  Princess Bubblegum, or Marceline the Vampire Queen, both from Adventure Time.  All goddamn week my brain's idle processes keep drifting back to that question.  And really, I havent been able to come up with an answer yet.  They both have their positives and negatives, like both of them would help better yourself, with PB you would most likely learn something new and unexpected, and with Marceline you would probably do something new and unexpected.

PB is intelligent and proper, but coming from royalty may hold it against you for being not quite proper enough, not to mention her royal duties probably being a higher priority than anything else she has going on.  She's a master of languages and sciences, most of which you've probably never heard of.  Her days must be so planned out with all she wants to do crammed around her duties that  she doesn't seem like she'd have much time for a relationship.  But she seems like the type that once she has the time, and once she's sure what she wants then her choice is made and she will do anything she can to make it hers.

Marceline on the other hand has nothing but time.  She's over a millennia old, she's immortal, she's seen the fall of one world at it's own hands and the rise of the one that replaced it.  She's seen everything, done everything, been everywhere, she could tell you of things long gone that you probably couldn't even dream up, but having seen everything and done everything... what excites her?  What could you offer up to her that she hasn't already had hundreds of times, what can you do with her that she didn't conceivably do first?  To me she gives off a vibe like anything around her is little more than a timely pleasant distraction from the centuries that must undoubtedly be starting to blur together for her.  Any time spent with her no matter how long it was to you would eventually be nothing more than a blink of the eye for her and then she's on to the next distraction.

I have seriously put way too much thought into this.

Anyways, I did some fanarts of the two of them, it's a shot from the third season episode "What was missing?"  during the song near the end of the ep "My best friends in the world".  Finn the human is singing his feelings which starts to make the door of the doorlords react and open. PB and Marceline chime in with backup vocals. The two songs in this ep (I'm just your problem, and My best friends in the world) are IMO the best in the series and thusly this episode is my absolute favorite from all three seasons.

 And now for the picture. I don't always do fan art, but when I do it is done hastily and kinda messy.

I should have drawn in some music notes or something.  

I've watched the episode about 6 times now, and listened to the songs themselves countless times, both the episode versions and the pre-production demo versions done by Rebecca Sugar (tumblr, post mortal folly) (posterous, pre mortal folly) a story board artist for the series who writes the songs for the episodes she works on.  On her pages there that I linked to there are bits and pieces of her own art, some AT sketches, promotional art for the episodes she's worked on, and the demo tracks for the songs.  Go check out her stuff, there's a lot more non AT examples of her work on her posterous page but the two songs from the ep in question are on her tumblr.  Go, look, love her work.  I know I do.  It's sooooo flowy and shizz.  And the songs punch me right in the emotions.

NOW I NEED TO GO DO THINGS THAT AREN'T SIT AT A TRUCK STOP GULPING DOWN CUPS OF COFFEE BECAUSE I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP.

-Rab 

I'm not dead...

Not physically anyways.  Emotionally though, whoo, yeah, there's nothing left in me.  I work and I sleep and I work and I sleep and I work and I sleep.  Don't have the time and energy for anything else.

Anyways.

I was looking through my pictures and found one that I don't completely hate despite it's flaws.  The month/year date at the signature says it was don't in August of 2010, I can't really believe this is about a year and a half old already, but whatever.  There's some bit of backstory behind the genesis of the pic, but fuckit, I'm not even interested in it.

No idea when I'll be back to drawing new shit again, so whatever.

-Rab

Everyday is exactly the same.

Oh no, look out, I've gone down the road of using the titles of melancholic songs as blog titles... I'm in SUCH a great mood... yeah.

Every day isn't exactly the same as the one preceding it though... each new day brings a little less energy to get myself moving and more thinking along the lines of "What am I doing?"  and "Why should I bother?"  I'm ready to leave my job.  I'm currently looking for other employment in the field of work, but I'm not sure I should.  I'm not sure if being a machinist is the type of job I want to be doing.  I can't see myself doing it for much longer, but that could just be me being unable to see myself working at my current shop much longer.  Do I want to be doing the same thing 5 years from now?  I have no idea.  As far as I know I could be dead 5 years from now, but when I was 15 if you had asked me where do you see yourself in 5, 10, 20 years I'd have probably had the same answer.  I don't know.  I really don't.  I havent been able to find employment that I enjoy.  Food service, retail, manufacturing, military... No job I've had in the 10 years I've had jobs has ever felt like it was what I was supposed to be doing with myself.  They were always what I was doing for money at the time until I got fed up with it and quit.  And it's not like I can even make money off of art anymore.  Not that I ever really did in the first place.  Even when I have all the time in the world to draw, I can't stay focused long enough to keep commissions going.  I honestly have next to no interest in probably half the subject matter I've been commissioned to draw over the years.  Mostly because it's characters I just don't give a fuck about and/or the actual subject matter I find dumb.  Just because something may have something sorta to do with something I'm into doesn't mean that I'll automatically be into the drawing.  It takes damn near an act of god for all the pieces needed for me to be into a drawing to fall into place,  things like characters involved, overall tone of the piece, if the idea behind it is maybe a dumb joke, and other things... I'm rambling somewhat now.  I ate a sandwich and I settled down.  My ability to draw is tied to my emotional state.  If I'm not in just the perfect mindset I can't do it, I don't want to do it, it causes me physical pain to try.  So for now and probably forever my drawings will only be something I'm able to do to channel my emotions.  It's somewhat of a stress relieving tool similar to someone writing in a journal.

tl;dr

You don't need to pay attention to all that shit, lookit the drawings below this instead.

Kat and a friend getting ready for a photoshoot.

Some quick studies of Kat's face.  I'm trying to alter my style a bit by thinking of things like facial structure, so eventually every girl I draw won't look like hair and eye swaps of the same girl.  And who knows, I might draw a guy now and then.

That's it out of me again.  Fuck everything.  I'm going to sleep.

-Rab

She loved that staff...

Done as a joke last Saturday in response to an episode of the new Thundercats that had aired the day prior.

That staff was just like a staff to her.

Later,

-Rab

Stream Results from Sunday October 23rd, 2011

I guess I'll take a second and post the stuff I did in the stream this past sunday.  Not a whole lot done, but I was still at it for quite a while.  About 7 hours from start to finish.  Starting out, here's a seasonal piece.  Something to commemorate free candy day.

Candy corn catsuit.  Yum.  But only a few pieces at a time, or else I get sick.

And lines from the second piece I was working on.  Been thinking about bunny waitresses again.  Full catsuited latex clad bunny waitresses.  I had started coloring this on sunday, but havent gotten around to finishing it, will try to work on it this week sometime.

Bunny bunny bunny.

And with that I must get back to work.  It's a hard, rough, thankless life turning large blocks of steel into small blocks of steel.  Later.

-Rab

Repost recap: Medical

I figured since I've been too preoccupied with trying to be somewhat social after getting home from work the last couple days, and then I never get around to getting any drawing done, that for a post today I'd put up part of a post and some pics from from my now completely ignored livejournal.  I realize that here is absolutely no different than LJ, but it looks prettier.  I find it easier to manage the account and navigate things as well.  So go ahead and suck one, livejournal.  You've had your time.  (I do realize that to truly be among those who are moving forward with technology I should have started a tumblr, but whatevs... I'll do that once this thing is long forgotten and the next thing after tumblr has been well established, thus continuing the cycle).  

Anyways, on to the stuff.  I am just directly copypasta-ing the text over from the lj post so please ignore bad formatting and spelling/sentence structure.  I'm not proof reading this at all, just trying to make it a manageable block of text.  Also, you can skip the majority of it and scroll down to the pictures and you really won't be missing much.

There are pictures, I promise.

 Basic plot I've got in mind starts off with Kat arrives home from work early on a friday night, but being too tired to do much else she cleans herself up and goes to sleep. She then slowly wakes up and finds herself not in her own bed in her apartment, but in brightly lit hospital room, and instead of the jammies she went to sleep in she is instead wearing her favorite purple catsuit.

Now fully awake she tries to move around and notices that she's been strapped to the bed with large belts, she starts to get a little bit scared as she has no idea what's going on but that fear is alleviated when a nurse opens the door pushing a cart loaded with various rubbery toys and it turns out to be Mel wearing a very stylized latex nurse costume (one that Kat had not made for her, nor had she seen before).

Nurse Melly comes in, Kat tries to get her to explain what's going on and is ignored while Mel goes about the room checking equipment and setting some up. Some typical doctor speak from Mel ("And how is the patient doing today"... etc) Some more complaining from Kat that she has things she needs to do that while not as fun, she sees as more important than being locked in a room full of fetishy things with her best friend. Some scolding from Mel about how the patient needs to calm down/relax and that Mel has just the thing to get Kat to comply.

 From somewhere Kat can't see she hears a faint hissing sound start and Mel comes into view holding an anesthesia mask attached to tubes that Kat can only assume are attached to an anesthesia machine that is probably making the hissing noise. Nurse Mel gently but firmly places the mask over Kat's nose and mouth, saying something like "Just relax and breath, you'll feel better, I promise". Even with the mask on, Kat is still attempting to talk Mel in to letting her go, but with each breath needed to complain, that's another inhale of gas, so slowly but surely Kat's complaints get less and less urgent and frequent until right before she goes under she mutters a very faint "...Fine..." and promptly goes to sleep

Anyways, that's what I got so far, after that there's different stuff that happens, Kat gets put under again and brought back for different setups/locations/outfit changes, vitals are taken, some mock cpr, various areas probed with various instruments, more gassing just for the fun of it, some standard rubbery girl on girl action, and (because it became a stipulation of it being Nurse Melly) Kat strapped into a wheelchair and taken on a little trip around... wherever they are... by her nurse. Eventually it would end with Kat strapped back down to the bed like how she started, Mel makes some comment about it being time for her to be discharged, on goes the anesthesia mask again and despite pleading to stay (much unlike the first gassing) Kat gets put under again. She wakes up back in bed, at home, the next morning, confused as hell, wondering if it was just a dream. Anyways, pictures now. These were kinda done independently of each other, so there are little differences in details and outfits and whatnot. I didn't think I was going to keep doing them.

What would be the end of the first big block of text up there, or the end of the story... no, this one is the beginning. "No more talking Kittie. Just breath and relax, everything will be just fine."

 
  Somewhere in the middle of things, checking vitals maybe, I wonder how her blood pressure and heart rate are doing with her nurse straddling her like that :P

 
Rubbery girl on girl action AND some more light gassing just for the fun of it. inflatables and insertables and pretend Mel is wearing some sort of strap-on or holding a hitachi wand in her hand there (ok, so sue me, I forgot to draw something there...) The gas mixture would not be enough to put Kat out again, but enough to keep her a little dizzy and loopy and grabby. Mel's got her own mask so she can have some fun too, but since it's not fastened to her face, she can be clear headed if she wants to be.

 and the last one

Some mock CPR rescue breathing and fondling. Kat is strapped to the bed so it doesn't devolve into just a makeout session. Mel is trying to be professional about this nursing thing. The "making out" portion of the therapy isn't until later.


Alright, and that's that for that.  It's bed time.  Might stream this weekend.  Who knows.

-Rab

It's wednesday time, come on grab your friends...

We aren't going anywhere.  It's just me.  It's hard to get the fun started.  Wednesday Time.

I've got nothing new that was drawn today, but I can post some bits of stuff I was doing for a friend.

It was some collaborative musings over outfit design for their character.  I know little about her.

  

Some fiddling with the look of her suit.  It's magic, or super science tech or something.  

 And then I had used her as a base model when I was in a mood to try and design a gas mask that would work on an anthro character and still be attractive and functional.  It doesn't really look like her, but hey, it was supposed to be and content is content.  So fuck it.

Was the rushed work of a few hours having people shout ideas at me.  

Anyways.  It's far past time for a shower and bed.  So I'm a gonna get to that.  I may draw tomorrow.  We shall see.  I've got bunnies on the brain again.

-Rab

Ya know, you know, ya know.

Holy crap.  Look at this, three days in a row again with posting.  AND something actually sketched out today.  It ain't great, but it's new content.

I keep feeling like everything I do is the wrong thing, that every decision and choice I make I've chosen not the worst possible outcome, but one of the less desirable ones.  True or not, it's how I feel.  Though I also feel that regardless of what I do or do not do that nothing matters and nothing will change and I will always be the essentially useless person that I've unknowingly built myself up into over the last decade.  I guess these are feelings somewhere along the lines of inadequacy in that I don't feel that I can possibly measure up to the people who are even among those living similar lives with similar circumstances, and so that leads me to believe that what is separating me from being happy or at least content with things are the choices I've made and that every single last one I've ever had to make I've not chosen wisely.  In effect it is true.  Everything I have going on in my life stems from things I have or havent done for myself, so I really don't understand why I'm complaining.

Anyways, got distracted by chexmix, and forgot where I was going with that.

On to the arts.  Let's start with the piece actually hastily sketched out today.

Kat and Mel cuddle time.  Kat may have fallen asleep.  It was a long day.  Cuddle time with Mel is not a boring sleep inducing thing.  

And now for the last two bits from the stream on sunday.  They were warmup/ brain clearing sketches. No thought going into the planning of them.  Started with a couple strokes of the stylus and then built sketches off of that.  

Oddly proportioned Kat likes to keep herself in shape.

Kat. She's bloggin' and makin' stuff.

That's it outta me tonight.  More tomorrow.  

-Rab

Moar stream stuff

Figure I'll toss up another piece from the stream from sunday afternoon.  It's a sketch from a couple of weeks ago that was a revisit of the "hipster hood"  that I got around to cleaning up the lines and adding some rough color to it as well.  (I say rough, and that just means I was forcing myself to do it so I wasn't really thinking about it)

Not so much "hipstery" as it is general latex kink fasion, but I had to do SOMETHING with the hood.  

Also spent a tiny bit of time reworking the mask from my last post.  And by reworking I mean I completely changed everything on it.  It's meant to be, to me anyways, the ideal functioning and most attractive possible purpose bult fetish gas mask.  And still at this stage all it's got that is perfect is the functional part.  Visually.... the design elements borrowed or out right stolen from existing masks are still way too noticeable.  I hope that in time that will go away and while the borrowed elements will still be present, they'll just mesh in a way where the mask seems genuine and unique and like it could actually exist.  But for now I still keep on poking at it.  

At this point in time it's a cross between a Canadian C4, an M95, and an S10

That's it outta me tonight.  I've got two more doodles from the stream to post tomorrow, and then some other bits from helping out with some designs for a friend's character that I'll possibly round out the week with.  

Stay frosty,

-Rab

(speaking of frost, there was a thin glaze of the stuff on my car when I left work this morning, the seasons they are a changin')

Livestream 20111016

Two weeks since my last stream, 3 weeks since I got anything accomplished while doing it.  Still didn't do much to day.  Half ass designed a gas mask specifically for fetish use, but really, it's a smash up of a couple different real world gas masks with inflatable mouth and nose gags.  But it's a start.  The design is no where near finished.  This is just a starting point.

The basic mask with blue underlay.

And mask with all it's fun internal bits.  A breath through inflatable butterfly gag for filling up the mouth helping secure everything in place, but it also has a second inflatable section to the gag that when filled blocks off the airway in the mouth.  The nose tubes also have an inflatable function, where when deflated breathing through the nose is un hindered, but when inflated the airway is blocked off, much like the breaththrough gag.

Anyways, more outta me later.  I've got a couple other things to post from today too that I'll space out during the week.

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20111006

Ok, so here's another in the now increasingly incorrectly named Sketch-A-Day series.

You also get to hear my thoughts on my life... skip down to the picture, none of this means anything.

I hate my job.  I work behind idiots.  Everyone blames everyone else for all the things that go wrong.  My shift gets blamed for everything that goes wrong or missing.  I work 50+ hours a week in a "skilled trade"(what a damn joke) and can't afford to do anything but work, can't afford insurance, can't afford to put anything into savings.  Fuck, I can't even justify buying groceries half the time when I need them.  Fuck.  I'm fucking complaining about nothing.  I know other people have shit worse than I do.  I'm just frustrated.  It's been a couple years since I've had to wake up everyday dreading the drive into work.  Knowing that I only have bullshit to deal with.  Doing twice as much work as guys who make twice as much as I do.  Supposedly I make the small amount I do because I'm still supposed to be learning what it is I'm doing...  Eh.  I'm heading to bed.  I can't keep dwelling on this tonight.

Kat showing Mel something on the internets.  Possibly a Lolcat.

More later.   Maybe.  Fuck.

-Rab

Stream Stuff Sunday September 25th

Figure I'll post this stuff up before I have to run off to work here.  The sketches and stuff from the stream session I FINALLY got started around 9 last night.  After much fiddling with with procaster and delving into the Livestream forums to find an answer (thanks again Su).  laughs were had, things were discussed, and I drew some shit.

Starting off with something simple.  Kat works at one of those restaurants where the waitstaff wears a shit ton of buttons.  She keeps her flair to a minimum.

A quick ref sheet for Kat's new latex Nurse outfit.  It's transparent.  *drooool*

An ill thought out picture of NurseKat making sure her her patient is getting enough air.  

And finally, The latex hipster hood.  It's a regular hood, just with a glasses design glued to it as well as stuck on lips.

Anyways, that's about all out of me right now.  I'll try and doodle during the week here, and will post what I can.  

Later,

-Rab

Portal 2 cosplay fanart stuff.

I guess I had never bothered to post these anywhere but in a collage pic of the sketches I had done that month, but here's some pieces of my OC Kat and Suichi's Melanie in some Portal 2 inspired outfits.

Had to do this when I had learned that originally the portal 2 co-op mode was going to be with two female characters, Chell and Mel. Unfortunately this didn't pan out.  But I guess Atlas and P-Body are good too.

And then here's my Kat, much like in the bottom of the first pic, in as best I could do of a GLaDOS outfit that wasn't exactly the same as all the  other cute ones out there.  

Anyways, more later.  And probably some new stuff.  

-Rab

Coloring time!

Ok, so everyonce in a while, I see something by another artist that I just absolutely need to see colored.  Luckily I have the ability, and sometimes the time, to make this happen!  Ok, so I really only had the time to do this tonight because I said fuckit and left work early (long story that boils down to me getting overly upset for a good but some what stubborn reason)  Anyways, I saw a great piece of pencil work by We-R-Nomad of two of his characters doing some cosplay stuff (he seems to be on a kick at the moment) and I really just NEEDED to color it.  It's not as awesome as I initially saw it in my head, but it gets the point across.

Dat ass.

If you're interested in seeing his lines (and you should be) they can be found on his dA page.

lineses

Ok, well, that's enough out of me tonight.  Expect more doodles or coloring out of me at some point this week.

-Rab

Stream sessions 20110917/18

Couple of the pieces from the streams I did this weekend.  Not a whole lot done, I spent a fair amount of time actually working stuff to a finish, rather than just rushing through sketch ideas.  Anyways, without further stalling:

Kat inna chair with JoBeth. 

and then the lines for this last pic, and the blanks sketch for the last post.

More at some later, unspecified date.

Also, I stream drawings on the weekend, mostly so I don't feel like I'm wasting time by myself drawing all day on livestream but for those who can't stop by during to watch I guess it's been saving everyone of my sessions even when I tell it to delete it, so You can watch me sit, for hours, doodling.  It's so goddamn exciting.

:p

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110917

Or could be considered a stream sketch/color thing.  Again, thanks to those who stopped by to watch.

Some fucking around with an idea, playing with coloring.

More later! maybe!

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110914

So, something from me that DOESN'T have anything at all to do with kink of any type, unless you're into Arthur Darvill's bird nose.  Even if you are, it's poorly drawn.  Anyways, some fanart of the current cast of Doctor Who.

Karen Gillan is hard to draw.

Anyways, on to cartoons and bed with me.  It's late.

 -Rab

Too tired to draw.

I was gonna draw stuff tonight, but I got sidetracked catching up on webcomics, Checkpoint, and other things and a now it's a too late.  SO, instead I'm just gonna post something from storage that I still find that I like.

maybe some actual new stuff tomorrow.
-Rab

More reference sheets

Because I am a lazy, No real new sketch today, but some more of the silly Kat reference sheets.  Tremble before their awesome might!

Some catsuit loverlyness

And a bunny suit for absolutely no good reason.

Anyways.  Sleep now.  More tomorrow maybe.  Possibly some actual drawings.

-Rab

Reference Sheet

Ok, so not exactly a "sketch-a-day" material, but it was a drawing I did and it was done today.  Just much much earlier in the day.  Anyways, a quick reference sheet for my loverly Kathryn in her "normal" outfit. The clothing she's most comfortable in.  Just simple pants and a stripy hoodie.

  Anyways, more tomorrow.  AFTER LAUNDRY!

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110910

I have not come from the past to give the future a picture!   I did this tonight!  Again, not what I started out doing!  Weekend time is go!  No more work!  No more pants!

I might stream some sketches today or sunday, stay tuned here or dA.

later,

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110909

I again am filthy from work.  It was an odd day with odd people and an odd minute long power outage near the end of the night that made us call it quits.  Anyways, the daily sketch, there I think is no real need to explain as it won't be funny to anymore than a handful of people and I think they already get it.

Anyways, sleep now.  Then work.  Then maybe more drawering.

I spent WAY too much money on my new tablet, so I better damn use the thing.

-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110908

Despite being in a blind rage at work tonight and there an extra 2 and a half hours I actually felt like drawing when I got home.  I've had mermaids on the brain since I woke up today, got linked to a song involving them from an article on Kotaku earlier.  I didn't actually end up drawing a mermaid, but I started out going that way. The song btw is Save Dat Mermaid by the Gothsicles, it's about the Goonies 2 NES game.
The video:



And then on to the sketch, Kat, lounging inna innertube in a pool inna some a sort of highcut short sleeve wetsuit thing.

Anyways, it's off to the shower and then bed for me.  The damnable sun has risen and I'm still covered in casting dust from work.

Laters,
-Rab

Sketch-A-Day 20110907

So I've got this idea that I'm going to try and do a sketch a day for as long as I can keep it going.  I've tried this before and failed after a week.  "Sketch-A-Day"  will most likely become "A day that I happened to have sketched"  but whatever.

Anyways, to start things off, some Kat and Mel art.  Started it out with nothing in mind as to what they were doing, but eventually came up with the idea that they may be discussing something, like a movie they just went and saw or where to go eat after said movie.  Simple ideas from a simple man.

Anyways, maybe more tomorrow.  Or I might get lazy and start posting random shit from the archives.

-Rab

Livestream session Monday September 5th, 2011

We laughed, we loved, we admitted our cup sizes to complete strangers.

Here's shizz from my very long time on livestream today.

Some commander Rab because I havent done any in a while

Some Doc Mauser for Mauser

And I seem to have been able to read Suichi Tanaka's mind.


Anyways, the new tablet is awesome. I'll be drawing more when I gets a chance to.

Later,
-Rab

Ideas and shizz I need to draw when I gets the replacement stylus.

First and foremost, because the want is heavy at the moment, what I hope for out of the "soldier" equivalent class for borderlands 2.  Some sorta female engie/medic combo.  Yes I will draw it as Kat.  No, it won't be very good.  Yes, I will be dissapointed when it's not the character that ends up in the game.

Next things:  I really want to draw commander Rab again.  Not doing anything specific.  Just being his badass somewhat insane rubbery self.  Also apartment layouts for Kat and a friends character.

Fuck.  Stupid paper.  Why you so stupid.  Dumb stylus, why for you a breaka so easily...

Is there any real reason to use Blogger instead of Livejournal?

I guess Livejournal is sooooo 2005.  But here I am getting another blog that I probably wont update much. Expect to find random musings, character ideas, and the occasional sketch here.  IF I remember to update, that is.

:P