Running out...

I've had this idea for a while now, of a girl strapped down and made completely immobile.  Wearing a divemask/ gasmask w/regulator attached to an air cylinder and then left alone to watch the gauge on the tank empty.  In my mind whoever set up the situation would have had to leave saying they'd be back in X amount of time, and the tank had Y amount of air in it where Y>X, but then they don't come back when they said they would.   In reality though, the person in control would have just gone to an adjacent room and would be monitoring for when the tank goes empty, and would wait just long enough to come back to let the girl in the mask panic for a minute or so from not being able to breath after the tank runs out.  The only problem with the set up (I mean besides something going wrong and the girl in it being without air too long and dying I guess) is that you can't pull the same trick twice on the same girl.... or if you can pull the exact same stunt more than once, that girl is dumb as a rock.  

But yeah, anyways, finally got the idea together enough to get it sketched out thanks to chatting with a friend about it who had suggested the addition of the vibes.

Laters

-Rab

Rule 63 must be followed.

Born of ideas spawned by the half asleep ramblings of a deranged mind.  It's the only time I'm ever creative anymore.

Felt like gender swapping my Kathryn and Su's Melanie.  They didn't turn out quite as bisshy as I had hoped.  Also, I drew dudes for once. Thats something.

 

Kevin Andrews and "Mel"

Not the greatest, but so sue me.  It was a dumb idea I had while trying to fall asleep, and now that Ive acted on it I can ignore it.

-Rab

Now bi-weekly! Atleast... maybe... most of the time

It's a new year.  I have no enthusiasm for it yet.  My birthday, thanksgiving( and -aga), christmas, and now new years have crept upon me and then passed by in a flash.  Things seem to be doing that more and more.

All I can do is ignore the feelings that are brought up by the passage of time and carry on trying to find some manner of purpose for myself, or at least something I can tolerate doing for a career.  Cuttin' metal suxxorz pretty hard.

But for now, some doodles.  Not quite more Adventure Time fanart yet, but trying to work with the style for my own stuff.

Mr.Rabs the bunny and Kat the human.

Some more doodles of Kat.  I wasn't super enthused for how my night was going the night I did these... so Kat wasn't too happy either.

Suichi's Melanie working on her conquest of the Candy Kingdom.  "Gonna eat all the candy peoples"

And that is it for now.  Keep watching. 

-Rab

Right in the emotions...

So, I think I see some sort of pattern beginning to emerge.  Almost always after I reach out to the world saying "I'm not dead I'm just not drawing"  I almost immediately start drawing again.  At least a bit anyways.

But fuckit, whatever.  I didn't sleep.  I'm a little wired tonight so I went out for breakfast, laptop and tablet came with me, and fanart happened.

I have seriously been debating with myself who is better/more desirable:  Princess Bubblegum, or Marceline the Vampire Queen, both from Adventure Time.  All goddamn week my brain's idle processes keep drifting back to that question.  And really, I havent been able to come up with an answer yet.  They both have their positives and negatives, like both of them would help better yourself, with PB you would most likely learn something new and unexpected, and with Marceline you would probably do something new and unexpected.

PB is intelligent and proper, but coming from royalty may hold it against you for being not quite proper enough, not to mention her royal duties probably being a higher priority than anything else she has going on.  She's a master of languages and sciences, most of which you've probably never heard of.  Her days must be so planned out with all she wants to do crammed around her duties that  she doesn't seem like she'd have much time for a relationship.  But she seems like the type that once she has the time, and once she's sure what she wants then her choice is made and she will do anything she can to make it hers.

Marceline on the other hand has nothing but time.  She's over a millennia old, she's immortal, she's seen the fall of one world at it's own hands and the rise of the one that replaced it.  She's seen everything, done everything, been everywhere, she could tell you of things long gone that you probably couldn't even dream up, but having seen everything and done everything... what excites her?  What could you offer up to her that she hasn't already had hundreds of times, what can you do with her that she didn't conceivably do first?  To me she gives off a vibe like anything around her is little more than a timely pleasant distraction from the centuries that must undoubtedly be starting to blur together for her.  Any time spent with her no matter how long it was to you would eventually be nothing more than a blink of the eye for her and then she's on to the next distraction.

I have seriously put way too much thought into this.

Anyways, I did some fanarts of the two of them, it's a shot from the third season episode "What was missing?"  during the song near the end of the ep "My best friends in the world".  Finn the human is singing his feelings which starts to make the door of the doorlords react and open. PB and Marceline chime in with backup vocals. The two songs in this ep (I'm just your problem, and My best friends in the world) are IMO the best in the series and thusly this episode is my absolute favorite from all three seasons.

 And now for the picture. I don't always do fan art, but when I do it is done hastily and kinda messy.

I should have drawn in some music notes or something.  

I've watched the episode about 6 times now, and listened to the songs themselves countless times, both the episode versions and the pre-production demo versions done by Rebecca Sugar (tumblr, post mortal folly) (posterous, pre mortal folly) a story board artist for the series who writes the songs for the episodes she works on.  On her pages there that I linked to there are bits and pieces of her own art, some AT sketches, promotional art for the episodes she's worked on, and the demo tracks for the songs.  Go check out her stuff, there's a lot more non AT examples of her work on her posterous page but the two songs from the ep in question are on her tumblr.  Go, look, love her work.  I know I do.  It's sooooo flowy and shizz.  And the songs punch me right in the emotions.

NOW I NEED TO GO DO THINGS THAT AREN'T SIT AT A TRUCK STOP GULPING DOWN CUPS OF COFFEE BECAUSE I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP.

-Rab 

I'm not dead...

Not physically anyways.  Emotionally though, whoo, yeah, there's nothing left in me.  I work and I sleep and I work and I sleep and I work and I sleep.  Don't have the time and energy for anything else.

Anyways.

I was looking through my pictures and found one that I don't completely hate despite it's flaws.  The month/year date at the signature says it was don't in August of 2010, I can't really believe this is about a year and a half old already, but whatever.  There's some bit of backstory behind the genesis of the pic, but fuckit, I'm not even interested in it.

No idea when I'll be back to drawing new shit again, so whatever.

-Rab

Everyday is exactly the same.

Oh no, look out, I've gone down the road of using the titles of melancholic songs as blog titles... I'm in SUCH a great mood... yeah.

Every day isn't exactly the same as the one preceding it though... each new day brings a little less energy to get myself moving and more thinking along the lines of "What am I doing?"  and "Why should I bother?"  I'm ready to leave my job.  I'm currently looking for other employment in the field of work, but I'm not sure I should.  I'm not sure if being a machinist is the type of job I want to be doing.  I can't see myself doing it for much longer, but that could just be me being unable to see myself working at my current shop much longer.  Do I want to be doing the same thing 5 years from now?  I have no idea.  As far as I know I could be dead 5 years from now, but when I was 15 if you had asked me where do you see yourself in 5, 10, 20 years I'd have probably had the same answer.  I don't know.  I really don't.  I havent been able to find employment that I enjoy.  Food service, retail, manufacturing, military... No job I've had in the 10 years I've had jobs has ever felt like it was what I was supposed to be doing with myself.  They were always what I was doing for money at the time until I got fed up with it and quit.  And it's not like I can even make money off of art anymore.  Not that I ever really did in the first place.  Even when I have all the time in the world to draw, I can't stay focused long enough to keep commissions going.  I honestly have next to no interest in probably half the subject matter I've been commissioned to draw over the years.  Mostly because it's characters I just don't give a fuck about and/or the actual subject matter I find dumb.  Just because something may have something sorta to do with something I'm into doesn't mean that I'll automatically be into the drawing.  It takes damn near an act of god for all the pieces needed for me to be into a drawing to fall into place,  things like characters involved, overall tone of the piece, if the idea behind it is maybe a dumb joke, and other things... I'm rambling somewhat now.  I ate a sandwich and I settled down.  My ability to draw is tied to my emotional state.  If I'm not in just the perfect mindset I can't do it, I don't want to do it, it causes me physical pain to try.  So for now and probably forever my drawings will only be something I'm able to do to channel my emotions.  It's somewhat of a stress relieving tool similar to someone writing in a journal.

tl;dr

You don't need to pay attention to all that shit, lookit the drawings below this instead.

Kat and a friend getting ready for a photoshoot.

Some quick studies of Kat's face.  I'm trying to alter my style a bit by thinking of things like facial structure, so eventually every girl I draw won't look like hair and eye swaps of the same girl.  And who knows, I might draw a guy now and then.

That's it out of me again.  Fuck everything.  I'm going to sleep.

-Rab

She loved that staff...

Done as a joke last Saturday in response to an episode of the new Thundercats that had aired the day prior.

That staff was just like a staff to her.

Later,

-Rab